god... Yeah. My life sucks right now... But that seems to be the trend right now. I mean, my life could be worse but it's not like I'm already depressed enough as it is. I have been dealing with these stupid emotions... I know it'll never happen. But I don't want to give up.... I cant really. If you love someone this much you never give up. It consumes you... Ugh... I want someone to love me...Yeah. I know my friends love me... And I really appreciate it. I love you guys too. But I need a different kind of love too... Someone who I kiss, hold hands with... I thought I found that someone... But how could that someone be your someone if they don't love you back? They aren't. So I've been trying to move on... I don't mind being just friends. But my feelings will never truly die. So I guess I should try again wih someone else... But who? Whatever. Maybe I should just be alone forever... Yeah... Or just die. Well... That's it. I'm done. I just can't keep crying... Its really starting to make me sick...